Los Angeles, Sep 10 : Singer Robbie Williams says he could easily have played in the Olympic Games for “self-hatred” and yet fight his desire to be obese.The former drug and alcohol user, 48, explained that his addictions led the former user to “faraway places” and also revealed that his ego wasn’t what people think it was as he ended up believing he could not sing and was hating his body, according to femalefirst.co.uk.
He stated to The Sun in an interview to celebrate the launch of his latest album , ‘XV’ which commemorates his 25th year as a singer-songwriter on his own: “Drugs have taken me to far-off places and contrary to what people believe my ego is actually the opposite of self-esteem.I was ashamed of myself and thought I couldn’t sing , and looked like a s ***.
“If anyone believed that I was walking around with an exaggerated belief of self-worth, it’s the opposite.A If there’s a lot of people who say”You’re an C ***, you begin to believe that you are even if you’re not me, but I’m not’.If there were an Olympics for self-hatred, I would represent my country.”
Williams who is clean and happy now due to his wife Ayda Field 43, and their children Teddy, 9, Charlie seven, Colette four and Beau, two years old.Beau said that he is struggling with his weight: “I have lost weight but it’s an ongoing struggle.Inside me , there’s a massive person.”
The singer, once described as “the fat dancer from Take That” by his former Britpop rival Noel Gallagher, added: “My entire being and my body is begging me to move in the opposite direction and become morbidly overweight.
“At the moment, I am trying to eat less.It’s a continuous slog and is not my regular method of being.
“For me, what’s normal is being twice as tall.
Thanks God for vanity and also thank God for the job I do because if I weren’t doing what I do for a living, I am afraid of what I would appear like and what I could be.
“For me, it’s overweight and full of shame And then you do something drastic to reach the weight you’re comfortable with.But you’re also consuming energy in your body in order to do the work it’s doing and then you’re exhausted.
“I have an addiction to sugar that has me finding an opportunity in sugar.I’ve never been able adhere to abstinence from refined sugar and refined flour and all the other stuff.
“There is no equilibrium.Moderation does not exist.I don’t have the power to achieve that.It’s either fat or thin.”
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